Online Gaming is Depressing
For the past few weeks I’ve been getting really into online gaming and by “online gaming” I mean Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2. Don’t get me wrong, it’s not like I’m new to this nerdy scene, I’ve been playing games online for years. However, things seem to be getting worse. It seems like every time I join an online game I either get super depressed or incredibly excited and it’s not just because I have manic-depressive tendencies.
Within the first five seconds of joining a game I can usually tell if I want to kill everyone I’m playing against for real. Sometimes people are just screaming at the top of their lungs for absolutely no reason. Other times there’s a 12-year-old boy who sounds like a 6-year-old girl saying the n-word over and over again. Don’t get me wrong, stuff like this is hilarious, it’s just that their shrill voices hurt my ear drums a little bit.
The most maddening/hilarious annoyance I’ve ever faced in a game was when a little 8-year-old black kid kept calling people things like “punk ass bitches” and “stupid whores”. I don’t think this charming little digital soldier took a breath the entire match, he just never stopped talking. It was hilarious… Until he killed me a few times. Then I got depressed, threw my controller across the room and decided to become racist once and for all. It seemed reasonable at the time.
Still, with all these idiots and fuel for people hatred that could sadden a man, it’s still not as depressing as this next little fact. For some reason, when I’m all mic’d up and in the perfect place to perfect my trash talking skills, I remain silent. I just can’t help but be super shy while online gaming. I don’t know why this is and it’s the thing I hate most about my life. I think it’s because I’m intimidated by all the n-bombs, f-bombs and all the other one-letter-dash-bombs being thrown around like machine gun fire by 14-year-olds, or the fear that I could be put on some sort of sex offender list by calling said 14-year-olds “idiot pieces of fuck.”
Still, with all that being said and how rampant this verbal nonsense is in these shoot-em-up games, I’ll still run into a group of nice people that make me feel all better. They’re usually older people who just like gaming with friends for fun. Still, when I hear someone say “good game guys, you’re actually pretty good” I almost break down into tears, add them to my friends list and offer them free dinners and prizes. It’s strange that it takes online gaming to make me think “hey, there are still good people in the world.” Then for some reason I get booted from the game lobby and get thrown into the middle of a “fuck” party held by a bunch of idiot children and realize why I began hating people from the start. I also just realized that the last sentence justified one of my previous reasons for not talking in games to begin with, the sex offender list… Sometimes I’m not good with the words. :(
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