Productivity Problems

I may be awesome at pretty much everything, but even someone with my caliber of awesomeness has problems sometimes. The biggest enemy I face on a regular basis is the insane amount of procrastination contained within or around my person. This laziness is really starting to be a problem for me in my personal life. I’m starting to get freak out scared that if I don’t start getting my shit together I may be in the exact same place 5 years from now. Unless my two biggest fantasies come to life (winning the lottery or a zombie takeover) I might actually have to put some effort into something, which is a goddamn frightening thing.

It seems like every day I go through the same thought process. I usually wake up motivated and ready to take on the world. Every morning I think to myself “I’m going to get so much stuff done today, it’s going to be sick”, but then I go to my job. If you haven’t noticed from reading my past blog posts, my job completely sucks the life energy out of me. It’s not that it’s a necessarily bad job, but staring at a computer screen all day doing mindless busy work isn’t exactly a great way to keep the creative juices flowing. As a matter of fact it sort of puts me in a trance that renders my brain useless for the rest of the day.

Even with all that being the case, I still reach a point every night that I cannot figure out how to overcome. Every single night I think “I should start my book idea, or develop a blog project I’ve been thinking about for a while, or at very least start looking for a job in a cool place like Seattle, Las Vegas or anywhere but fucking Iowa.” Then I get this great burst of energy for about 5 minutes. I open up my laptop, crack my mental knuckles and then end up getting caught in an endless loop of YouTube “related videos”.

This procrastination isn’t only affecting my possible productive times, but it’s also affecting my fun times. Any time I want to relax and play video games or watch a movie I can’t because my brain always yells at itself about how I should be productive instead. It’s completely insane, but for some reason my brain feels more productive clicking back and forth between Twitter and Gmail for three hours, as opposed to playing video games. It really has to be some sort of mental disorder at this point.

Some people think that I may have a severe fear of failure, but I find that completely ridiculous. If anything I’m afraid that if I succeed my awesomeness will grow to the point where it will be like a nuclear bomb that goes off and makes all humans extinct, except for me, and then I’ll just be lonesome. This very possible reality keeps me up at nights. As a matter of fact, every human on the planet owes me for not making something of myself. You’re all goddamn lucky I fail or you’d all be dead.

Tags: procrastination, productivity

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